My emotions needs to be hand-cuffed.

Today I blew up at a friend.

I was mean.

I felt like a total bitch.

The thing about me is when I'm uncomfortable or disliking something for some reason,

my face shows it.

I'm like a mood ring.

My mood shows.

I swear, I try to hide it EVERY single time when my face turns black.

I just can't.

I'm someone who cannot pretend that I am okay.

I cannot put on a mask just to show you that IT. IS. ALRIGHT.

I need time to simmer down.

I'm sorry.

I hate myself so much because I don't mean to upset someone.

I hate being a bitch.

I don't want to be a bitch..

It's just one reason. ONE TINY REASON.

I don't get why I got so mad..

I just don't like it when it is planned that we are meeting and then another group of people comes along.

And it's not like I don't like the other group.

I do like them..

They are nice.

I think I'm just not sociable..

I hate awkwardness and large groups.

I know I am wrong to get mad.

I am so weird like a bird..