:'(

Woke up early to have breakfast out.
When I walked out of my uncle's house,
Jonas came running out from my granduncle's (2houses away) place shouting,
"Tina jie jie, the chick is dead!!!"

I stopped moving without saying anything for awhile as I watched the chick dangle upside down on one leg from Jonas' hand.

It wasn't dead..
but that's what I assumed.
Maybe it's because I didn't believe it was dead.
Its eyes were sometimes closed and sometimes opened and its little body wasn't as cold as a carcass'..

It couldn't move though.
Limbs were frozen due to the cold weather.
Someone didn't close the door of the store room and it was shit cold yesterday night.
I was dying even with a sweater on..
imagine how the little chick tried to survive on its own.
It couldnt't.

It's weird that the chick didn't chirp like it always did.
It was a noisy little fella.
Always chirping even when it's asleep.
Chirps even louder when I put it on the floor or cage.
Chirps softer when my hands were near.

My heart broke.
I cried and cried and I couldn't stop.
My uncle went to find a light bulb and a box so we left it in the box hoping the heat from the bulb will warm its body temperature and bring it back to its hyper state.

Cried in the car when we were on our way for breakfast.
When we came back,
I rushed to the store room.
Little one didn't move an inch when I stroked its head.
I broke down again.
I know it's crazy.
I've only looked after the chick for less than 2 days but it really broke my heart to see its lifeless form.
In that short period of time spent with Chickadee poo (argh I just realised this name is so awful)
i've bathed it, fed it,
warmed it in my shirt on my tummy,
gave him as much hot air I can breathe out,
put it to sleep,
let it climb up to my neck to sleep.

Didn't think a chick would be that adorable.
Kept wanting to sleep and when I put it away from my hand,
it will come closer to my hand,
peck it and jump up.
CRAZY CUTE OR WHAT.
:'(
I took a video of chickadee poo doing that.
I'm going to compile it.

Went to bury it at the beach alone.
Kissed it on the head for the last time before I put it in the little hole of sand I dug with a stone.
Cried like crazy.
But everyone thinks it's better for the chick cos if it were still alive and I'm not around,
it'll probably die under my little jin men cousin's hands.
One time Jonas found that kid stuffing the chick up into his shoes.
wtf.
Jonas' really protective over the chick too.
Love him so much.


edited:
Scrape the last bit.... (-.,-)

ME: Are u sad?

JONAS: Yes.. *thinks* No.

ME: What?! Why?!

JONAS: I like cars more than chicks.

ME: How can you say that?!

JONAS: Mei mei(Yolande) worse. Just now she said, "So can we eat the chicken now?"


(T________T)
Omg are we even related?!?!