I am a 怪物。(my imperfections)

Wtf man.

I have Glossophobia and mild social phobia.

HAHAHHA.

That's stage fright, 

feeling anxious during presentations,

(I always bite my words and end up apologizing and I'll blank out if I have no notes.)

feeling nervous when I'm in a midst of a crowd and 

when there are a lot of people I don't know around me.

I hate going to parties unless I know like half of the people there.

I hate eating alone.

I hate walking alone in （for e.g） starbucks, clubs, streets.

My face will turn fucking black.

HAHAH.

That's why people always say I look damn fierce.

That's cos I feel anxious.

Like most of the time!!

It's been damn long alr.

Since I was in Primary school.

HAHAHAHHAHA.

My actions will be damn awkward for example,

the way I walk and the way I move my hands.

I'm super self-conscious and I get nervous when people look at me.

Sometimes it's bad sometimes it ain't that bad.

Depends.

I worry about things most people don't worry about.

I didn't think it was serious till I sat down and rly thought about it.

None of my friends are like that.

And I have one more secret that only Ernest knows which is damn a;kjfalfkj

I regretted telling him cos now he thinks I'm super weird.

Plus I can only make friends with people like one on one.

Not in a group unless you KEEEEEEP talking to me till I feel comfortable.

I observe people before talking to them.

Kind of like picking friends cos some are hard to talk to so I don't try.

I'm friendly though. 

You talk to me, I'll talk to you.

But that's when it's face to face.

Ah, I hate groups and gatherings.

Unless we're schuper tight.

I think it's a problem with my self confidence.

D: This feeling sucks.
Don't see that I dare to upload myself singing on youtube.
That's cos I'm looking at a camera and not people.
HAHA.
And I only dare to embed it on my blog, not facebook.
Unless It's a collab with someone else.